I care about Buffy desperately opening up her heart and being too late. Always. Forever.
"I'm too late, aren't I?"
I think Buffy convinced herself she was in love with Xander because he was her stalwart true. He's always been there for her. He was safe. Except even Xander wasn't safe for her heart--she confesses her feelings and gets rejected. He was supposed to be safe, but he wasn't safe at all. And isn't that why she slept with Satsu? Satsu was guaranteed to care for her, wasn't she? There was a spell proving she loved Buffy. And if Buffy didn't care as much, if she was the one loved and not the one loving, then her fragile heart wouldn't get stomped on. It couldn't. She could flirt with intimacy without the danger of heartbreak. She's got like PTSD of the heart.
Oh, Buffy. *heart aches*
Every time she opens up her heart, it's right before the fall where she smashes to the ground and little bits of her heart shatter. Her heart is fragile, it's wounded, but she keeps trying to make it work. Is she ever gonna give her heart to someone, fall for them and gift them with her heart, and have them catch her? Have them actually be there for her?